The sun sets on another day…
Sunset was again cloudy and dark, but I felt good about that the sky and all that was going on. It was not warm yet, but it wasn’t as cold either and the sunset called to me, and I listened and watched.
It’s an easy question. I put it out there every day with 29,000 sunsets and ask people to consider what if they knew how long their life would be. What if you knew every moment and every decision you would make good and bad? Would you make the same decisions?
What about your yesterdays? Would you erase parts of your past because they were uncomfortable? Would you avoid some things in favor of others?
A lot of people play the what if game and they put a lot of stock into knowing how things would turn out. I’ve played it before and I can say with utmost certainty that I wouldn’t change a thing, not even a little, not even at all. You have to understand that everything and every moment of the day is what makes us who we are. If I go back and change something because it was uncomfortable it might make me a worse person. If I go back and change something that taught me a lesson no matter how hard it might be the end of who I am.
When I was 18, I made a horrible mistake. I was offered a golden key that would have changed my entire life and put me in an entirely different place right now. If I went back in time and told myself to accept instead of facing the hardships that I had to face, the defeats, the pain, and the wretched moments that few could understand, I would not be me. Worse, my children would not exist, and the good life that I have now would not be here. There would likely be no books, no writing, no 29,000 sunsets, and perhaps no me.
What is the price? Well for no win there seems to be a terrible price or perhaps not. I have had many really intense dreams that foretell of some strange things, if even a portion of them are true my life will be very long. Still, through that life if even a portion of what I have dreamed will come true it will be even more brutal in many ways. It will be more than the situations that created who I am, whatever that may be. My question to you is if you could go back and change anything, would you? Are you happy with who you are? Knowing that changing anything changes everything, could you live with changing even a little?
Think about it and be thankful for the moments that you have. Enjoy your sunsets, each and every one, and realize that they have made a spectacular view. You may not see it now, but i do.
So as the sun sets on another day, find a way to enjoy every day realizing that there are no replays. Realize that all the things you have been through have made you the person that you are. More than that believe in the you that you have become, no matter what.
Sleep sweet, love life, and keep living…