The sunsets on another day…
Rain and clouds and rain and clouds and suddenly some sunlight. I enjoy it all. Then I take a moment and enjoy it some more. 
I read a book after my divorce that talked about how we became attracted to things. The book aligned, many thoughts and ideas, and as it did, it made the premise that tiny bits of time and positive things affect us more heavily than those giant moments that we all seem to focus on. 
I would like to think it’s even more subtle than that. I would like to think that, as we wander through the valley of life, we are affected by some things we don’t even notice. I was reading a book once about two people who had not known each other. They were acquaintances, but they weren’t in any type of relationship. They thought about each other occasionally with no serious attachment or plan in mind. The consistency of that particular interaction and the positive Ness of the two continued, and they drifted apart. Years later they met at a random function, and when they did after talking, the man had named his daughter after the woman, and the woman had named her son after the man.
I think that happens from time to time when we put someone on a pedestal and set them as a guide for some thing we didn’t even know we wanted, or that we knew we wanted, but we’re unable to reach for. It kind of makes me laugh. It kind of makes me a little sad.
You’ll probably sit there for a second and wonder why it makes me sad or happy, after all, it’s a ridiculous, abstract idea. It probably hasn’t happened in life or if it has happened to never meet and they never realize why they made the decisions they did. What if we did?
What if we noticed that each day we spend doing something or with someone or being out there? Made a difference in our life? What if we noticed the people that were more important in our life and set aside those that made themselves more important?
I know someone, actually, I know several someone’s, that have gotten into relationships with other people not because they have anything in common, but because it was what was expected or worse, yet what was forced upon them by the situation. They have put themselves in a back-and-forth bit of craziness because it was either expected or they excepted it. In the situation, at least the ones I am aware of, when the person realizes that they are trapped in something they never wanted, it throws off their entire dynamic, and they realize either that they are sad or they fight each day to get through it. Some of them, one that I know of, find a High Point in every day, realizing they are trapped on the edge of a nightmare.
They never realized that if they had paid attention to the small, cumulative slices of time that they could’ve been happier, more fulfilled, supported, and so much more. It is those little things that make a difference.
We’re kind of told the story in my granddaughter’s second favorite movie, when suddenly a beautiful young woman starts realizing she is falling in love with a beast. All we have to do is notice that there’s something there and we can see the world in a much different way.
So as the sun sets on another day, I think I went down a crazy rabbit hole and met a crazy rabbit. I think I look at the world and see so many possibilities that will never come to fruition. I think sometimes I put people on a pedestal and usually they belong there. I think sometimes I Fail. I think that I need to pay attention more to all the little things around me, no matter what. 
Sleep, sweet, love life, and keep watching…