The sun sets on another day…
Sunset was nice. The beauty rolled around me and I felt like I was at peace for a moment, then I smiled as the sky shifted and became a wild ride of color.
I thought about my post yesterday a lot today. It was hard for me to come to the realization that things were my fault. Even though somewhere inside I knew that I was at the core of everything I did, it’s kind of hard to take responsibility for everyone else. It’s even harder when you realize that everyone else really doesn’t understand how they fit into your picture. I know that’s difficult to realize but sometimes people don’t rationalize out how they’re affecting you.
This mostly happens because we have very different points of view of the world. Even if you are twins and grow up next to each other the way that things affect you is very different and as we progress that becomes even a more different.
I’ve talked about a girl in my school before who made a statement to me when I was a teenager about my hair. She didn’t realize how much I would obsess over that over the years and I didn’t realize it either. It was my fault for washing my hair the night before and letting it dry in unique and amazing juxtapositions. It was her fault for becoming a catalyst that would drive me near to drink.
It was my fault that I married my ex-wife, but it was her fault that many of the difficult problems we faced were because she wasn’t willing to see any position except her own. No matter how much I conceded she would always want more and that meant I got less and less. Yuck.
With that in mind I can say that it was my fault, but it wasn’t my fault. In spite of my push to make the entire world my fault, sometimes it’s not my fault. By that same token sometimes it’s not your fault.
Take a deep breath. Except those things that are your fault and move past them. Except those things that are not your fault and move past them. In the end move past it all because it doesn’t really matter who is at fault. What matters is how you deal with it. Find a way to be positive even in the darkness or ask for help, friends are good for that.
So as the sun sets on another day, I hope your day was amazing. I hope you got to see the sunset. Mostly I hope you know that you are special and whether it’s your fault or not, keep being you, no matter what.
Sleep sweet, love life, and live hard…