The sun sets on another day…
I am thinking about our center. What is at our center and what makes us who we are in life. We often consider our lives as somewhat organized, but I feel strongly we are only organized at the center. Just like the sun, pure chaos on the outside, but calm at the center, perhaps even cool? (Well, who knows)
I have been writing about a list posted by a friend to their daughters. I am down to the last three items. Tonight’s message is: “No one will ever love you more than I do.”
this is tough. there are two parents for every child, and there are a myriad of juxtapositions this can be interpreted. I would like to think it is true, that no one will ever love my daughter as much as I do, nor will anyone love my son more than I do, but I am considering here that maybe that is selfish. Do I condemn my children to never know the level of love from someone that I feel?
Hmm, for me, and maybe it is just me, I want to be able to say, I pray that someone feels for you the way I do, or I hope someone can love you with the power I do, or I hope someone loves you as much as I do. Doesn’t that sound better?
Actually, I can take it one step further. Perhaps this is a message in itself. I would say “My children, I hope you find someone who loves you greater than the sum of the love I feel for you, with a passion greater than I have ever felt.” Why you may ask? I know I will not be forever, I know the years before me are fewer than the years behind, and I would never wish that my children would be left alone without the depth of my love. Perhaps that is just me. Perhaps I want something that is ethereal for my children. I am sure some people will think ti does not exist. Perhaps though, if you look into someones eyes, and search inside those eyes, and see the fire, and life, and passion, well, maybe it is there. I hope so.
so as the sun sets on another day, yes, I love my children so much it hurts, but I hope someone else can be as full of love as I am, and be there for them each and every day of their life, no matter what.
Sleep sweet, love life, and love…yes just love…